I seriously need to update more, if only for the sake of my sanity!

As the Christmas season approaches, I usually am not stressed and school tends to be going well. Neither happened this year, mostly because of work related stress.

Everything is great now though, I am eagerly anticipating my sister coming over from NYC. Christmas Eve is always a wonderful day!

Now for the bad news: I have to work tomorrow. At first I had to open Christmas morning, but I managed to convince my boss to switch so I work Christmas night. I am so glad I don't miss out on anything Christmas morning now!

Also, I met someone on Match.com! We're meeting a couple of days after New Years, and I am SO excited!

My grades for the semester are: an A, 3 A-s, and a B+. HOORAY!!!

Anyways, I hope you all have the merriest of Christmases and the happiest of New Years! Love to you all!

Well, I haven't updated because I seriously have no time. My life is so hectic right now and I haven't had a good night's sleep since...wow, when? I really don't know! Ah well, that's what happens at the end of the semester when you work 30 hours a week and go to school full time.

Quick update:

Thanksgiving actually wasn't good. I worked from 5-midnight and didn't get any turkey. I finally had some yesterday, but that's beside the point. I wanted to spend time with my family but it just couldn't happen. They haven't spent a long period of time with me in a while and that makes me sad.

On a lighter note, I finally took the plunge and surrendered: I joined an online dating service! I've had a lot of nice guys who've wanted to talk, but also a lot of weird ones. We'll just have to see!

Hmm...what else? Work and school are leeching all my energy, but I'm still remaining positive. Now that Christmas is coming up I'm sure everything will be fine. Anyways, it's only the beginning of week, so you never know, I might get a decent night's sleep soon!

Hopefully you all are doing well, and sorry I've been so scarce!

I am back!

When all hope was lost, I just got my computer back! I am SO excited to be able to post on here again!

UPDATE:

Work and school has been so hectic I haven't had time to do anything even remotely interesting. However, if there is something you think I need to know about what's been going on with you, please let me know!

I missed you all very, very much.

I love you all, let's just get that out of the way.

Unfortunately, I cannot continue updating my livejournal. My computer crashed last month and I will be unable to be on. EVER. I'm only on right now because I found a computer at school for a few moments.

I feel so horrible that I haven't commented or lent moral support to you guys. I really, truly think you are all wonderful people and nothing will ever make me stop caring about you. However, I cannot be on livejournal anymore, and that makes me sad. My life is going fine, I'm happy and content, but I will feel like something is missing because I can't be there for you all. I'm very sorry to have to leave. I love you all.

Forever Yours,
Christy

I haven't been updating because I've been in a rut lately. Not that work and school aren't great, it's just that I seem to have lost all of my self esteem because of something that I have neglected to mention. Not to worry, everything is wonderful with my beloved friends and family, but a guy entered my life last year and I thought...well, you'll see if you read what's behind the cut.

( Boy trouble )

Anyways, onto happier thoughts! I really like all my classes and I even started a few clubs on campus that have gotten off the ground, so I should be really proud of myself for that right now. I hope the rest of my week is great and I hope yours are too!

Well, it's been another week with nothing really important happening. I'm actually excited for school to start on Tuesday, maybe something interesting will happen.

My classes are as follows:

Lit of the Supernatural

Book list:
Dracula
The Turn of the Screw
The Haunting of Hill House
Something Wicked This Way Comes
The Monk

Excitement Level: High
It's taught by my favorite teacher and I'm completely into scary stuff

History of the Ancient Mediterranean World

Excitement Level: High
Ancient Greece and Rome! What's not to love?

Victorian Poetry

Book List:
The Idylls of the King (about King Arthur, written by my favorite poet)

Excitement Level: Moderate
The class itself should be great, but the teacher grades hard and is unreliable.

Nature and Its Relation to Humanity

Excitement Level: Low
I thought it would lean more towards the spiritual side of nature, but apparently all we do is discuss how awful we are because we cut down trees.

Learning Through Service

Excitement Level: Very Low
I have to go do community service 4 hours a week at the local animal shelter. The only thing is that I have to go very early in the morning. I really would prefer not to.

Anyways, those are my classes! I still am working 20-30 hours a week at work, so hopefully I'll be okay and will still have a life!

...maybe not, though.

I feel like a horrible person for not updating recently. My life has been back to normal since the accident, but a little bit too normal because I have nothing to report.

Right now I'm on vacation with my family in Lake George and I'm feeling a little down because it's a family reunion and nothing is going right. I don't want to get into it now because I hate complaining, but let's just say I can't wait until I'm home.

Other than that, my life is kind of boring, so rather than ramble on about nothing, I'm going to go take a nap. Have a great rest of the week everyone!

I'm trying really hard to think positively right now, but I really seem to have a screwed up life at the moment.

It started on Tuesday when I was pulling out of a parking lot on my way back to work after taking a deposit. There was a car making a right turn into my area so I made a left. There was a car being blocked by the one taking the right and I hit him.

Rest assured, both the other driver and myself are fine. He was very nice to me, but I am going to have to have the car fixed and pay the insurance rate once it goes up. Basically, every cent I have is gone.

The guy I hit is a judge too. Can you believe it? I sure know how to pick them, huh? Also, guess what car he had? A vintage Jaguar that's going to cost a fortune to fix! Just my luck, right?

Then my parents have been making me feel awful because they no longer trust me. They yelled at me saying I was guilty and that I should never be allowed to drive again. They don't want me going anywhere besides work from now on.

Then yesterday I found out my grandpa has cancer that may or may not be operable. I was so upset yesterday at work, I just couldn't handle myself. Fortunately my coworkers are extremely supportive and loving people, as are my friends. I don't know what I'd do without them!

So anyway, I might be a little scarce because I have a couple of things I have to take care of this week, but I really am trying to look on the bright side and be as active on LJ as possible. I really appreciate having you all as friends!

I swear I have a good reason for not updating.

To be honest, I was depressed. I had hoped it was nothing at first, but I had a couple of panic attacks (which are not fun, for the record) and I decided that it was more than a few bad days. Then of course I woke up yesterday and felt fine.

I feel fine right now, too, so I think it's over. I did start new medication so I think that might be the explanation for my weirdness. Anyways, that's what's been up with me.

Well, that's actually not all. Some things led to me being more stressed out than usual, but I will not name them here. Let's just say that it affected my sleeping habits to the point where I didn't sleep for three days. I felt bad for worrying everyone, but I couldn't exactly hide my pacing late at night nor my panic attacks.

Plus side: I got a car! It's my parents old one actually, but once I get insurance for it it's mine! Yippee!

Also, I realized that I have some wonderful and amazing friends and family. They were all so good to me this past week.

And I finally saw The Dark Knight. Is it wrong of me to still wish the Joker won?

I don't know why, but I have a tendency of hoping bad guys win in movies if they're more interesting than the protagonist. Hmm, maybe I have a dark side. Who knew?

Okay, I think that's all the updating I have time for. I will hopefully remain as active as possible around communities and on my journal. Love to you all!

I never update, and it's kind of weirding me out because normally I'm not like that. I usually never shut up in RL, trust me on that.

Anyway, my birthday was Tuesday. Thank you to the lovely wonderful amazing fantastic friends who wished me a happy day! It wasn't quite the best birthday ever, but it was nice.

I am now 20 years old. 3 friends and I went to Canada to Ontario for the day. Right before we left I found out one of my best friend's dad had died the previous night, so on our way home we stopped in to see her. I felt horrible, mostly because of how upset she was but also because for one brief second I thought, "why did this have to happen on my birthday?" I know it's completely human to think such a thing, but I really try to be an unselfish person and be there for the people I love. For some reason, I couldn't shut up about myself. I really feel like a terrible friend now.

Then I had a party at my house, to which 2 more friends showed up. Then I got a call from my sister. I'm not sure if anyone remembers this, but my sister was diagnosed with a stress related disorder. She had been doing well until she got a dog last week. The dog is sick and they're not sure if the can make him better. Naturally my sister Katy is a nervous wreck, which would be bad enough. However, she is making herself sick again and continuously calls the house crying. It's really terrifying because there is nothing I can do to help her.

Yeah, so basically my week has been kind of depressing. I cried at work when everyone gave me a birthday card because I was so touched that they all made the effort. I really love them, they're such good people. That was the highlight of my week, which is kind of weird because it should have been the birthday itself. Ah well...

( The birthday girl )

Again, thank you all for the sweet wishes! You are all genuinely wonderful people! <3